alrights. so now im blogging in the dark. im just trying to voice out myself ya. really feel like telling someone. whom i can really really trust. ya. its like she's just being plain selfish mans. wannted the lights off when alseep. wadabout her sister when she's having olevels? will she sacrifice for her?NO. u noisy at night, we try to tahan. when she's sleeping, u wanted the lights on and chat on the phone and wadever. did u put urself in her shoe?NO. so now. im doing something seriuos. my school work. [not this blogging]. and there u are. wanted everything to urself. pluig off the cable halfway and change to anotehr and causing the computer to hang halfway and having me to restart all over again. anad sending some stuff thats half sent. so wad time do u wan me to sleep? i've been working on the thing for 6hours. wadever. u just noe how to complaint to taht guy. wads the use. ur attitude seriously sucks!! ure the biggest so wad? it has been years. tahaning u. wads the point? we dun say out alot of things. so? wil u understand us? dont u noe having another guy everyday at home is so inconvenient? and having chasing ur sis to another room is so damn idiotic. she's ur sis and u cant even do wad she did to u. she shares her things and is considerate towards u. she trys everything and did it to her best. wad about u? she tried her best in her studies and all u would say is.. nothing good. u took it that the room is really urs. have u ever sees to ur own attitude b4? have u ever thought about how u spoke to us be4 u scolded us that we talk to u in a loud way? did u?No. i dun care even if u saw this post. i hope u see it. its not like wad. cant u just tRy? just TRY to give in to us abit? and not us being the one who give in to u all the time? its no use. no one will really understand. no one. okays. this is a complicated world.
and it has been years since u guys understand me. in ur mind, im just still someone who is so young. maybe not in age, attitude, but in things i like, i do. u all never fails to get me something i will like a few years back and need it den, but not now. i noe u guys are trying to noe me better. whenever we go out or wad, we'll understand each other more. i'm really glad. but its just the way u guys treat people. its just being unfair. everyone can see it. this year is an enriching one, but its not a good one. got to noe many things and experienced lots. hope that this period of time can make me stronger in future. yeahs.
ya. just now my work wasnt saved and i have to just redo and now i cant send it thru the email to my fren. so wad can i do? nth. tmr morning have to go school. how? im not really sad about this although i feel like breaking down and ya. like wad jx told lf and that he noes u lots. yes. he understands. i believe that we 3 are not that different. we accept jobs, we do them and did our best and tried our best in helping anywhere. like now. i redid the thing. but it couldnt get thru the mail. and everything is gone. so the 6hours till now. which is like 7hours or8? was like. nothing. but atleast i learnt something yeahs. ya.
alrights i really thought alot about the past. this year. ya. i got to noe and understand lots more peoplr better. ya. i felt that ive relly grown ya. like wad mz said, we, people may looks happy but is actually not really happy in the inside heart. i rmbed this piece of word since the time it came out of hes mouth. its right. ya. it really very not easy to reallly be happy and enjoy both in ur heart and outside. most of the time u may think that u are really happy. but actually ure not. ya. if u want to achieve somethings. u really have to do ur best. okayokays. u wanted to be the best, but ure just simply not showing. perhaps showing infront of the "judges"? but not at the back of the scene. its not worth wad u noe. wadever it is, uve been better in many ways on the stage, but ive been better in many ways behind the scene. just hope taht we can really jiayous ba. for next year. its a very impt year for us. simply for both of us cos we're really aiming for the same thing. two more months to one aim and 9more months to another.. its either its over and left with one, or achieved and aiming for the other one. im trying real hard to put down the past and only take with me the valuable lessons to the new oncoming year. some happy moments should be taken maybe?
okayokays. should not be touching the com for the next few months once school reopens. ya. will start to mug. didnt managed to use my time wisely this year. so did really learnt my sec3 work well. sec4 le. 8more months to pre and 10more months to os. really afraid the day i receive the results. the sec4ns just received the results this monday. the feleings definitely not good when ure waiting for ur results rite. ya. okayokays. see you guys k. and i really need something to relieve my whole year? hhas. perhaps some games which i dun often get to play? i dunno.
ya. im bloggin it all out today. yupps. see that guy again at smb mrt that day. ahahs. he was wearing the same mickey mouse shirt. hahas. LOls. but this time he walked the same route as me when going home. but that time didnt see him. so means he have 2 house? o r? hahas. Lols. hmms. rmbed him clearly cos taht day i was on the train alone and he was like standing opposite me and trying to like turn the head slightly to like peep? hahas. Lols. wasnt thinking too much. serious. no one's behind me. hahas. ya. thats interesting. perhaps he's? hahas. but im not manns. hahas. i have my jx ya. hhas. hmms.
really hopes that next week's camp will really mark a good ending in 2006. yepps. hahas. alrights. seeyou guys den. hhahas. will be away for camp from 26-29/12/2006. yupps. no worrys about me ya. hahas. yupps. i'll be sure fine.(:
